“Some people grow up knowing exactly what they want to be when they grow up: a firefighter, a nurse, a teacher, etc. The only thing I remember knowing for certain as a young girl is that I wanted to be a mother. I wasn’t sure what I would do for a living but I knew that I would do my best to chose a career that would allow me to be as actively involved in my children’s life as possible. Little did I know then that I would become a mother much sooner than I had ever expected. I became a step mom in 2013 and it just felt right. I had my first biological baby in 2014.”
“During my pregnancy, I gained well over 50lbs. My pants stopped fitting me within a few months. My shirts not long after, before I knew it my entire body was expanding more than I ever imagined it would. My face, hands and feet were often swollen. I felt like I didn’t recognize myself. Growing up, I envisioned myself as one of those “all belly” type of cute pregnant woman. Boy was I surprised when I realized I had no control over my new “mommy” body. I got stretch marks behind my knees and on my hips. My belly was probably the last thing to expand and never really got THAT big until the last month.”
“After having Jax I lost all but 10lbs of the weight I gained during my pregnancy. Naturally, things didn’t all go back where they used to be and I am still adjusting to the changes. At 3 months post partum I decided that I was one of the lucky ones who wouldn’t lose hair…Yet another lovely surprise when a few days later it started to fall out. Becoming a mother has been the craziest ride I’ve ever been on but I wouldn’t change it for the world. My body is permanently changed but I will always remember that it has housed a beautiful baby boy, nourished him, kept him warm and safe for 9 months and for that, I will be forever thankful.”
(Sonia asked me to include these words in her post, they are so beautiful!)
A mark for every breath you took, every blink, every sleepy yawn.
One for every time you sucked your thumb, waved hello, closed your eyes and slept in the most perfect darkness.
One for every time you had the hiccups. One for every dream you dreamed within me.
It isn’t very pretty anymore. Some may even think it’s ugly. That’s OK.
It was your home. It held you until my arms could, and for that I will always find something beautiful in it.
– Birthmarks by Cassie Fox